My parents don't act proud of me. They yell at me all the time.
My grades are terrible. My ex friend is going to be in my school next year. My friend basically ignores me. I'm blaming myself for everything.
For cutting...
For being depressed...
For still cutting after a full year...
For being pathetic...
Posted by limepink93 who is depressed on Jun 4, 2011 at 2:10 AM
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Yesterday I was walking down me street to go back to my house. On the way, I passed my ex friends dad's house. He was there standing by the window, looking out. When he saw me, he gave me a face of disgust. He looked directly at me... The worst part is...He's going to be at my school next year...
Posted by limepink93 who is depressed on Jun 4, 2011 at 2:03 AM
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December 6, 2010. Diary entry.
Why did I cut myself?
I cut myself because it's all my fault. It is my fault for starting. For letting Cameron and Hunter get the idea in my head. For not being strong enough.
I get bad grades. I don't do what I'm told to do. I cry, everyday. My parents get angry at me all the time. I do everything wrong. I. Am wrong. I mess everything. I hate myself. I hate my life.
And there's my sister, Aly. The complete opposite.
I just. Hate it.
Posted by limepink93 who is depressed on Dec 16, 2010 at 9:35 PM
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As much as Ray makes me happy, I can't stop. I can't stop blaming myself for everything.
For starting.
For wasting my parents money.
For making my parents angry.
For starting cutting.
All of it is my fault.
By the way, Ray, is my boyfriend's name.
Posted by limepink93 who is out of options on Dec 16, 2010 at 9:27 PM
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I have no motivation. There is only one good thing in my life and that would be my boyfriend. But even he puts me down. In 2008, I believed in myself. At the beginning of 2010, I felt worthless, useless, and I wanted to commit suicide. I didn't, obviously, and I won't. But, I am a cutter. I cut myself, and my parents know. It was very hard at firs, with them know. But. It's good now. Kind of. I. I just have nothing to look forward to at school and whatnot. I am 14 and am a freshman. I don't have many friends that go to my school. It's all blahhh.
Posted by limepink93 who is unmotivated on Dec 16, 2010 at 9:22 PM
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