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I'm failing university. In my 5th year. If I flunk out now I'll have to wait 2 years to go back to a different university. I'm 23. I haven't been going to classes. I just want to go on the internet. I want to sleep. With the shades drawn. Shutting people out. I can laugh. But I could cry every day. I'm anxious all the time. I've tried counseling and reaching out to my mom but it hasn't changed anything.

I have two friends. Girlfriend and I broke up in October. I want to give up. I want to crawl into a hole and hook my brain into a computer and not have to think. I've stopped leaving the house. I want to move back home and live in the basement and feel sorry for myself and get pity. I don't know. Fuck my life. It's so pathetic.

Posted by Anonymous who is depressed on Apr 9, 2010 at 12:54 PM

I would try to get motivated to stay busy and in school. I don't know if you have a job or what not, but I would go do something you like to do with a good friend of yours that you like to hang out with. Playing pool and drinking beer works for me. I also like to bowl, but do what you want to do to keep yourself motivated to stay in school. Sometimes being on the internet and playing video games can get rather depressing, so try to detach from that and take a break from it for at least like 2 weeks. If you have to go on the internet, just limit yourself to 15-30 minutes a day. Try that.

mike_needsbeer commented on Apr 12, 2010 at 1:54 AM (reply)