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this giant black guy cornered me the other day and told me i wasnt shit. he said i would never amount to anything. he rreached into my back pocket and took my wallet. he kept smacking my girlfriends ass and grabbing her chest, telling her she should leave with a "real man". he smacked me across the face and told me to watch my back.then he sauntered off. two days later, im going to surprise my girlfriend at work on her lunch break, and as i pull up, i see her getting into a car. so i follow it to a nearby park. who gets out the drivers seat? none other than that giant black guy. i watch from across the street as the hold hands and kiss and spend the next 20 minutes looking like some love birds in the park. Im so depresseed

Posted by Anonymous who is depressed on Mar 3, 2012 at 12:12 AM

After being laid-off from my job in January 2009, my young children and I have "relocated" 3 times while I looked for work, moving from relative to relative. We went from a typical middle-class American existence - I was a hardworking, well-educated executive with a long stable career, a beautiful home, excellent credit, great schools, beloved pets, with wonderful friends and neighbors, and earning well over $100k a year (and even had a million dollar life insurance policy!)

I am now broke, my savings almost completely depleted and I now share a tiny spare room with my 2 kids. I am on the cusp of being a complete financial burden to my relatives ... and I wake up in the middle of the night, every night, in a cold sweat, so ashamed that I wasn't able to prevent this from happening and terrifed at the prospect of the inevitable poverty and hardships my kids are about to face.

Posted by Anonymous who is out of options on Nov 19, 2010 at 10:15 PM

relationships, friendship can fuck me, thats the shit

Posted by Anonymous who is depressed on Nov 3, 2010 at 9:10 PM

HFS

I'm failing university. In my 5th year. If I flunk out now I'll have to wait 2 years to go back to a different university. I'm 23. I haven't been going to classes. I just want to go on the internet. I want to sleep. With the shades drawn. Shutting people out. I can laugh. But I could cry every day. I'm anxious all the time. I've tried counseling and reaching out to my mom but it hasn't changed anything.

I have two friends. Girlfriend and I broke up in October. I want to give up. I want to crawl into a hole and hook my brain into a computer and not have to think. I've stopped leaving the house. I want to move back home and live in the basement and feel sorry for myself and get pity. I don't know. Fuck my life. It's so pathetic.

Posted by Anonymous who is depressed on Apr 9, 2010 at 4:54 PM

Job sucks. Everything is breaking. Can't buy the house I want. Fuck.

Posted by Anonymous who is depressed on May 24, 2010 at 11:55 PM

Why are you depressed?

My active, vibrant husband became very ill in April 2013 and he died 4 months later in critical care on a ventilator. He was slowly getting better and we all thought he would recover until the last week when he was admitted to the hospital.

I am a registered nurse and I thought I could make a difference in peoples health and even save lives. Now I realize I can not. I failed the person I loved most. A person who trusted and believed I could help him regain his health.

I asked his doctor where it all went wrong and what had I missed, what could I have done if only I had known. I do not believe what he said: "There was nothing anyone could do." He never believed my husband would make it and he dropped the ball in his treatment plan, over and over.

I wanted to change doctors early on in the illness..but my husband did not want to embarrass the doctor in front of the group he practiced medicine with...so we kept on. I should have insisted we see a new doctor...but my husband weakened so quickly and time ran out. Now it is all I think about.

Posted by Anonymous who is depressed on Dec 15, 2013 at 12:51 AM

For fucks sake why cant I have a normal life? My girl friend is an absolute bitch. She comes off as a pissy slut most of the time, however I know there is a sweet part of her she just doesnt show. Lately however things have been getting worse, and things dont feel as connected as they should be. I got pretty mad when she tried to hide the drinking problems shes had. We are both having alcoholism problems and I want to stop, its just too hard. I can tell it makes her really upset to see me in a total state of stupor, and i feel really bad. I dont know what to do anymore. She also doesnt know about my more recent tobacco use, and she feels really strong about smoking and other shit like that. I realise her life is difficult, but it angers me so much that things are messed up between us. She was the one who got me into drinking, and caused me to smoke. Now she is he one that is mad at me and telling me to stop. I feel like ive let myself go lately. Help? Advice anyone?

Posted by Anonymous who is depressed on Feb 5, 2014 at 6:58 PM

HFS...

I absolutely hate my job right now and I feel depressed. I just celebrated my one year anniversary at my job, and I pray that I will win the lottery - or at least get a notice in the mail for jury duty so that I don't have to go to work.
I am currently looking for a new position; however, I have a mortgage so I can't quit until I find a job with an equivalent salary. I could give you a whole list of why I don't like my job: such as inconsistent management policies, low morale, having to work constant overtime just to keep up with everything (I'm on salary so I'm not getting paid for this extra time), uninformed upper management. If however, I am really depressed and that is WHY I hate my job, then once I find a new job I'm still going to feel just as tired, uninterested, unmotivated as I feel now.

Posted by Anonymous who is depressed on Jan 12, 2010 at 4:49 PM

Why are you depressed? My wife is constantly cheating on me, I just don't know what to do anymore. I told her the last time she did it, that if it happened again, I would be gone. Well guess what... It happened again, and she just acted like she didn't even care, until she was sober, then it's "I'm sorry babe, I didn't mean to", or some kind of excuse like that. But it would be hard for me to leave her, because I love her with everything I have, and also we have a baby together.

Posted by Anonymous who is depressed on Aug 30, 2010 at 9:27 PM

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Why are you depressed?

I am depressed because I spent the most formulative years fucking around, not the good kind and wandering around aimlessly. It took me a long time to get my act together to a point where I had focus and a long term goal but I was missing the part where I had somebody to be with. All those years and I had no one, nobody to share in my and their ups and downs. When I finally finished my goal of getting a degree, I am now having trouble finding a job. I am nearly 30 and I have not accomplished anything or lived a life filled with meaningful experiences. As the weeks pass and no prospects in sight I wonder if things will ever get better or will I continue to be alone and live a lift devoid of growth and fulfillment. The weight of depression lies heavily around my core, I literally feel it pulling me down.

Posted by Anonymous who is depressed on Nov 2, 2014 at 3:33 AM

Why are you depressed?
I have to move away from all my friends my girlfriend who loves me to death, and I love her just as much. I feel like im abandoning them. Like im letting them down.

Posted by Anonymous who is depressed on Sep 18, 2014 at 11:47 PM

My dog got hit by a car, and now he has a broken jaw, and several fractures through out his body... Also my girlfriend is on her period....

Posted by Anonymous who is depressed on Jul 1, 2014 at 11:20 AM

I am sooo broke, If I only had some starter cash to get my life turned around I could support my family the way im supposed to. Got 2 elementary school kids and a great wife... We dont get along sometimes and I know its because the boat we are in. Im unemployed and trying to get up the ladder, but its just not working out for me now.. Please please please let some cash drop in my lap from somewhere.. I do not have a gambling problem, drinking problem, I dont hit my wife, I just cant seem to shake this thing off my back.

Posted by Anonymous who is unmotivated on Feb 23, 2014 at 3:35 PM

Why are you unmotivated?

I am a fat fuck at 50 years old. Game over, man.

Posted by Anonymous who is unmotivated on Feb 23, 2014 at 1:41 AM

For fucks sake why cant I have a normal life? My girl friend is an absolute bitch. She comes off as a pissy slut most of the time, however I know there is a sweet part of her she just doesnt show. Lately however things have been getting worse, and things dont feel as connected as they should be. I got pretty mad when she tried to hide the drinking problems shes had. We are both having alcoholism problems and I want to stop, its just too hard. I can tell it makes her really upset to see me in a total state of stupor, and i feel really bad. I dont know what to do anymore. She also doesnt know about my more recent tobacco use, and she feels really strong about smoking and other shit like that. I realise her life is difficult, but it angers me so much that things are messed up between us. She was the one who got me into drinking, and caused me to smoke. Now she is he one that is mad at me and telling me to stop. I feel like ive let myself go lately. Help? Advice anyone?

Posted by Anonymous who is depressed on Feb 5, 2014 at 6:58 PM

Why are you depressed?

My active, vibrant husband became very ill in April 2013 and he died 4 months later in critical care on a ventilator. He was slowly getting better and we all thought he would recover until the last week when he was admitted to the hospital.

I am a registered nurse and I thought I could make a difference in peoples health and even save lives. Now I realize I can not. I failed the person I loved most. A person who trusted and believed I could help him regain his health.

I asked his doctor where it all went wrong and what had I missed, what could I have done if only I had known. I do not believe what he said: "There was nothing anyone could do." He never believed my husband would make it and he dropped the ball in his treatment plan, over and over.

I wanted to change doctors early on in the illness..but my husband did not want to embarrass the doctor in front of the group he practiced medicine with...so we kept on. I should have insisted we see a new doctor...but my husband weakened so quickly and time ran out. Now it is all I think about.

Posted by Anonymous who is depressed on Dec 15, 2013 at 12:51 AM